Confession…

My closest friends known me as the typical Leo gal, who’d fight for what she believes, especially when it comes to matters of the heart… love, relationships and even breakups.

But as years goes by…
I became more gutless and constantly doubting my thoughts and actions.
Perhaps i could blame it on the past r/s, leaving me skeptical and incomplete.

Until i met Nicky, my unwilling counselor, whom encouraged me to face my past relationships.
Then Shen and Freddy, who did like wise…

Last Sunday, i finally confessed on how i feel…
Something i probably should have done years ago but only did it under mass ‘nagging’ from Nicky and Freddy.

After the confession, i felt less burdened than i’ve ever remembered…
Even though i’ve put friendship on the line and chose never to get an answer, chose to lose a friend forever…

Why?

Because…
I don’t wish to go thru another 8 years, thinking about how i feel towards that person and re-storing that feeling whenever that person ‘disappear’. It’s time to clear things up and really move on with life.

To him:
I knew how i feel towards you when you re-appeared in my life but i never knew how to confess without losing you for good and i didn’t think i was really sure back then, till now. Whatever decisions you make, be it to stay as a friend or disappear again, it’s fine with me.

Just remember, you’ll always be someone i care dearly for.

*****

To friends and people who care…
Don’t worry, i’m fine and i promise no more emo-ing for at least 6mths 😀

By the way…
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