XinYun @ SG

我不知道該說什麼好
你的來去一直都沒有預兆
這次你是帶著笑　還是藏著刀
別那樣　又用擁抱當酬勞
別那樣　用玩笑當圈套
我只求一個人　一點自尊和驕傲

＊我不知道該座什麼好
這一切真的從沒有預兆
這次你又帶著笑　而我只想逃
也許是　你要的我不想要
也許是　你要的我做不到
所以我一個人　用空白填未來
當作炫耀

＃沒有後悔　沒有爭吵
再也不要苦苦的計較
就算瘦了也沒什麼不好
話便少　也很好
沒有淚水　沒有煎熬
再也沒有人讓我吃不下睡不著
心碎了　我還炫耀

重唱　＊,＃

受傷的字眼　擱淺在唇邊
不要你悱惻敷衍

重唱　＃

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合
愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那时我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合

愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我 nono
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口 喔~
原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得

我難過
我才懂

*****

touching song which one of my friends sung last night while ktv-ing…
a song that brought back memories and flashbacks, making me wished this song was out at that time when needed…

sometimes, we do things or make certain choices, knowing it’ll hurt the one we love but felt that it’ll be better for the other person, we went ahead thinking it’ll lead to a different path.

the justice of peace for Jo’s solemnization said this earlier…
it’s always good to keep saying ‘i love you’ to your other half, even when you are mad at each other, to remind self the good in each other.
because when couples fight, nasty words would be said in a fit of anger…
although it was said during fit of anger and apologies were said, the damage remained, sometimes till old age or death.

i couldn’t help but agree wholeheartedly.
still remembering certain things that person said years ago, about God, family and faith…
thus not wanting to prove him or myself it could have work, i only knew how to keep running away or avoiding, even though back then feelings were sufficient to work it out.

can’t help but always doubt myself.
and guess it was the same for him back then.

and the past will be left as past…
for we have both moved on, having respective partners.

honestly, it’s taking me a while to get this section of my past outta my system…
my apologies, getting overly sentimental these days but i’m glad i have DD’s understanding and close friends’ support and listening ear. *hugs DD*

what my colleague said was true, after having spent most of those 7 years with that person, to truly be fine with things and come to terms with the change in your friendship and feelings, it’ll just require more time and effort. the slight heartache will be there but over time, it wouldn’t hurt as much or bother much anymore.

eventually, things and people can be replaced by something or someone better.
if for the better, then that’s all it matters and it’ll be through God’s hands, for hope of lasting happiness.

to him:
thank you for being so patient and sorry for the hurt which was caused throughout the 7 years, all which you had done are greatly appreciated and remembered. we had some good times and really shitty ones, which you constantly amazed me by forgiving with love and standing by me. perhaps to you, it doesn’t matter if we would still be friends, for you have someone who shares your faith, who cares and you could devote your time and love to. i can only pray and hope one day, we’ll be able to talk and share like we used to, as friends.

god bless and take care m.y.

哪里能找到 永远温暖的拥抱
谁在牵挂着 孤单远行疲倦的红娘
哪里能找到 受伤时候的依靠
有谁能让我 烦恼的事都不再烦恼
爱不需要理由
懂得珍惜就能够拥有
为我敞开的双手
爱不需要理由
懂得珍惜就能够拥有
只有家为我等候
有一种味道 能让我想起年少
有一座城堡 包容原谅所有的争吵
爱不需要理由
懂得珍惜就能够拥有
为我敞开的双手
爱不需要理由
懂得珍惜就能够拥有
只有家为我等候
这爱无法取代 不求回报的关怀
原来爱一直都在
原来家一直都在 oh yeah
爱不需要理由
懂得珍惜就能够拥有
为我敞开的双手
爱不需要理由
懂得珍惜就能够拥有
只有家为我等候

*****

Just sharing, something i’ve been listening to…
No idea how it got on my itunes, probably part of a compilation disc i bought.

There’s a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There’s a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know ’til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There’s a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there’s a fine, fine line between “You’re wonderful” and “Goodbye.”
I guess if someone doesn’t love you back it isn’t such a crime,
But there’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don’t have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don’t think that you even know what you’re looking for.
For my own sanity, I’ve got to close the door
And walk away…
Oh…

There’s a fine, fine line between together and not
And there’s a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you’re still in your prime…

There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.