XinYun @ SG

Spotted these 2 fur balls, while walking to the train station, after Canon free basic training class…
They were hanging around at the small lighthouse, next to Harbourfront Centre

Based on the no. of photos, i’m pretty sure you know which fur ball i preferred
Its chocolate-y stripes, willingness to pose and stay still for me and allow me to pat it, won my heart…

Aside from the kitties…

Well, canon training class was fine, all dslr users, from 500D to 7D (and maybe a few 400D users), of all ages…basic modules but trainer covered a portion on aperture, which i think was quite helpful.

Just being lame with the title(reference: new kid on the block)…
Anyway, one of the new kitties spotted under my block.

Not sure if it’s male or female, hadn’t been able to get near it for the past 2 weeks and the above is the only photo of it (which i have), without scaring it away. I’m guessing it’s a male, based on the features.

It seems rather grumpy, perhaps another abandoned kitty that my dear neighbors have rescued or adopted.

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合
愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那时我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合

愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我 nono
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口 喔~
原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得

我難過
我才懂

*****

touching song which one of my friends sung last night while ktv-ing…
a song that brought back memories and flashbacks, making me wished this song was out at that time when needed…

sometimes, we do things or make certain choices, knowing it’ll hurt the one we love but felt that it’ll be better for the other person, we went ahead thinking it’ll lead to a different path.

the justice of peace for Jo’s solemnization said this earlier…
it’s always good to keep saying ‘i love you’ to your other half, even when you are mad at each other, to remind self the good in each other.
because when couples fight, nasty words would be said in a fit of anger…
although it was said during fit of anger and apologies were said, the damage remained, sometimes till old age or death.

i couldn’t help but agree wholeheartedly.
still remembering certain things that person said years ago, about God, family and faith…
thus not wanting to prove him or myself it could have work, i only knew how to keep running away or avoiding, even though back then feelings were sufficient to work it out.

can’t help but always doubt myself.
and guess it was the same for him back then.

and the past will be left as past…
for we have both moved on, having respective partners.

honestly, it’s taking me a while to get this section of my past outta my system…
my apologies, getting overly sentimental these days but i’m glad i have DD’s understanding and close friends’ support and listening ear. *hugs DD*

what my colleague said was true, after having spent most of those 7 years with that person, to truly be fine with things and come to terms with the change in your friendship and feelings, it’ll just require more time and effort. the slight heartache will be there but over time, it wouldn’t hurt as much or bother much anymore.

eventually, things and people can be replaced by something or someone better.
if for the better, then that’s all it matters and it’ll be through God’s hands, for hope of lasting happiness.

to him:
thank you for being so patient and sorry for the hurt which was caused throughout the 7 years, all which you had done are greatly appreciated and remembered. we had some good times and really shitty ones, which you constantly amazed me by forgiving with love and standing by me. perhaps to you, it doesn’t matter if we would still be friends, for you have someone who shares your faith, who cares and you could devote your time and love to. i can only pray and hope one day, we’ll be able to talk and share like we used to, as friends.

god bless and take care m.y.

It’s the 3rd week of 2010 and similar to last year, loads of unexpected stuff happened in the first month…
And not forgetting a nice pile of work sitting on my desk plus in my inbox.

Good news:
- DD is doing alright at his job
- someone i care alot has found someone special and i’m happy for him
- jo’s hens night and ROM this weekend, soon to be Mrs Chng
- arch’s course of study, confirmed!

Average & Bad news:
- reminded of E and how much i wish he’s still around
- a slight sense of loss and closure for the past 7 years, knowing that i’ll never lose him as a friend.
- closure with duckie
- knowing how childish one could be, fighting to be right over a piece of gadget
- arch’s leaving soon

Well i guess we’ll just have to see how the following 49 weeks will be.
Hopefully, if God allows, it’ll get better and better for me and my love ones

Back to checking reports…