Extra sickish.
Bah.

Perhaps it is good, to have more time to focus on work, especially with all the changes…  that would probably cut down on work life balance.
Sadly, pretty much the norm in all industries.

Hopefully i’ll still have time for family and friends…
And a few trips…

re·vert/riˈvərt/

Verb:
Return to (a previous state, condition, practice, etc.).

Met up with a few old gaming friends and newer bunch last week.

For the old bunch, it felt like old times, when we used to game, supper and chat over coffee and second hand smoking (for me, that is).

For the bros, they felt I’ve changed a lot in the past 2 years, mellowed a lot and soften my approach on things and ideas. Which I agreed, perhaps for relationships as well, since I’ve been through quite a life changing one lately.

One suggested that I revert back to my old self, the wild, over confident smug i was long ago but others felt, there isn’t a need to. Since this change might not be a bad one, it could help ease me into the next phrase in life. Which I agree wholeheartedly.

So why revert?
Simply, a change in mindset and having faith helps.

It will be harder this time to stop thinking or loving and get back into the scene but moving on, doesn’t mean forgetting how I feel or felt for him.

D, if it’s meant to, I hope it’ll be you at the end. Till then, ilu. Meow.

The first step or phrase, as always is the toughest but at least I know I have friends to keep me sane and/or smack me when I emo too much. Plus, I’m never alone when God is with us.

Comparatively lesser than the usual I get from doctor, wonder if he felt I’m taking too much.

Anyway yes, finally surrendered to the mighty influenza, after resisting it for a good week. I guess a major upper back ache clinched the deal, for a quick trip to the doctor.

Though resting, an old friend came by to chat about his predicament, which I hope will change for the better.

Not much I can share but…
‘Bro, even the odds or change it to your advantage, at least a little.’

And well, chatting with him got me reminiscing on the past, our gaming days mayhem, how much has changed and us, now.

Can I still want something or someone without thinking of consequences or do I worry too much on the future?

Truthfully, I don’t know.

There’s something I want but I’m not sure if it’s just a passing phase or a need. Till I’m sure or at least vaguely sure, it’ll just be a want… and not a need.

Oh well…

Perhaps it was just that shocking and heart wincing, I still remember in details… That message i received from your friend, how worried sick, prayed and wondered why it had to be you.

And probably because it happened on New Year’s Day too.

My dear friend, it has been 3 years and 7 days since you left. I hope the world above, is without pain and suffering and filled with love as how we imagined.

I don’t think I’ll ever forget you unless old age sets in and rob me of memories but I do hope I’ll see you some day, up there.

E… (=^.^=)~

After skipping family day for so many years, finally dragged decided to attend this year’s at USS.

Aside from the crazy crowd and dready weather, it’s great to finally set foot in it, with the fun bunch I work with and getting on the Transformers ride

And the tiramisu was pretty decent.

Probably would check out USS again on a weekday, with other group of friends